Measuring My Words

My post yesterday got an interesting response (via Hacker News).

Maybe the whole "write a [b]log post a day" thing is not the right way to go. You can reflect without broadcasting to the world and committing to something like that. Just relax for 30 days and don't do anything of importance, just be.

I actually agree with the intention of that. In fact, the "write a blog post every day" goal is kind of antithetical to my goal of "doing nothing for 30 days." 

However, I think that there is something deeper that I'm trying to access. I currently have this perception that every post has to be an essay and a masterpiece, and I want to break that in favor of more honest, free communication. I have this deep-rooted fear that someone will read one of my blog posts and judge me as "not a good writer," or "not all that intelligent." As a result, writing a blog post becomes a project in and of itself. 

First I have to think up "the idea," and it has to be really, really good (at least in my mind). If it isn't good enough, then the post dies there. Then I need to write the first draft, preferably in the range of 500 to 1000 words. In the case that I can't think of enough to write about, I kill it. Or it sits as a zombie draft in my inbox for six months to a year, until I finally clear it out. The net result is that I've averaged about one post a month for the past four years (credit goes to one of my former coworkers for coming up with this statistic). 

And there's nothing to be ashamed of about one post per month, but one of my current life goals is to write more. I have always enjoyed writing, and have "intended" to make it a bigger part of my life, but it has remained an "aspiration" rather than an "occupation." So I'm going to try to write something every day, even if I can't think of anything better than transcribing my grocery list. And, if the quality suffers in favor of quantity, I'm going to be ok with that, and work my way through. I hope that the net result will be more honest and unfiltered communication.

And that's Day 2.